I'm ready to try to start losing again. For the past several months I've
stuck to low-carb for the most part, but I've eaten too much. I eat when
I'm not hungry, I wait too long to eat my first meal then end up eating too
much later in the day, and I've cheated probably more than I've admitted to
myself, and lately I'd even slacked off on the exercise.
It started when I tried to quit smoking. And failed. Sorry guys. I think
I need medical help with this, and my dad's going to help with the cost
when he gets some checks in. See, I have this tendancy to get all fired up
about changing my life, and I want to do it all at once, and then at some
point it just gets to be too much and something snaps and I crawl into a
hole and stop trying to do anything. I keep thinking I'm strong enough to
just quit smoking, just like that, and butch up, and tough my way through
it, and it kills me to admit that on this I am weak and I need help. Yes,
quitting is as simple as just not doing it, but all the stuff that comes
next was just too much for me to deal with. The food cravings, the mood
swings, the violent impulses, the crying jags, the sleepless nights. After
a couple of months it wasn't getting any better, it just kept getting worse
and I caved.
Anyway, I'm so grateful for low-carb, because I feel like I've utterly
failed as far as keeping up the discipline goes, but I have _still_ managed
to stay under 160. It's because the core of my diet, meats and green
veggies, has stayed the same. I've not reverted back to pasta and rice and
potatoes as staple foods. It's the eating around the edges I've had
problems with, a cookie there, a handful of candy there . . . gaw.
So, I've decided to focus on one problem at a time, and I picked weight
loss for now. Yes, I do want to be thin and buff, not just "not
disgustingly fat." I'm starting more exercise, especially more cardio, I'm
breaking my weight routine into alternating upper and lower body days to
force myself to go to the Y every day. This every other day thing doesn't
work for me mentally, I need to have a daily routine. I'll start tracking
my food on Fitday again, and no more cheats, and no more eating when I'm
not hungry. Every time I want to eat when I know I've already had enough
food, usually at night, I will do some yoga or wall pushups or take a walk
instead.
Ok. I've got my motivation back, and I've got a strategy. I'd say wish me
luck but luck has nothing to do with it. Thanks you guys, all of you on
here, old hats and newbies, you're all my inspiration.
--
Michelle Levin
http://www.mindspring.com/~lunachick
I have only 3 flaws. My first flaw is thinking that I only have 3 flaws.