Well this week is a complete right off, I messed up so bad that it's not funny. I craved sweet
things and sugar all week. And no matter I did I couldn't get away without eating them. I have
gained back the weight I lost. I'm a little disapointed in myself for what I have done, and almost
thought about giving up. But I am not. Because I thought about how far I have come with the things I
have given up. I worked my first evening shift today at Tim Hortons and never thought once about
having a donut. I was doing good with not having any pop either and I messed that up. Why is it that
we put stuff into our body's that we know will make us not feel good? Time and time again we do it
and or at least I do anyway, also we keep telling ourselfs that we will stick to this healthy way of
eating and that it is better for us then the old way, but yet time and time again we go back to the
old way. Is this some kind of punishment or something? Have we done something so terrible that this
is what we get for it??? I tell you some days I wonder why I even bother trying to lose weight, then
I look down at my stomach and the rest of my not so perfect body and I realize why I am putting
myself threw the ups and downs of all of this ??? And then I think about how much better I feel when
i eat healthier and exercise. Thats why we do it and I know that I can't give up no matter how
frustrating it gets or how discouraging it gets. And I also know that you guys will tell me not to
give up. So I am not. Tomorrow is another day and I will get back on track. Or at least I am going
to try my hardest . I am going to do this because I want to do it for me. I need to do this for me.
Because of all the sugar that I ate this week I have felt terrible. I am startingover at square one.
I guess that is what we have to do untill we get it right. But when do we get it right ??????? Is
there a time that we know that what we are doing is best for us??????? Is there a moment in our
lives when we say okay this is my time and I am going to make myself healthy so that I can live a
long and happy healthy life????? Alright sorry I have gone on so long. But I needed to vent. If you
can call what I just said that. Oh I almost forgot, I measured myself this morning and I am down 1
more inch for a total of 8 inches so far. I guess thats just as good as the scale going down ??????
thanks for listening to my ramblings angie