Warning: long, self-indulgent post follows.
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I'm injured.
And it's really getting me down. I've been avoiding posting
about it up to now because I didn't see much point, but
there's only so long I can go without talking about running,
and that's about to end.
After having done only casual running, mostly as cross-
training for other sports (rowing, cycling), I decided some
months ago that it was time to get serious and devote myself
to running. I made a big effort to train intelligently so I
could avoid injury--even though I thought a lot of the
suggestions were overly conservative. I increased mileage
gradually, I limited the amount of speedwork I did (and only
started it after I had developed a good base), I
incorporated rest days and easier weeks into my training.
And the effort of this restraint was considerable--I really
wanted to hammer harder, or do more mileage or especially
more speedwork. I also tried to do more stretching of my
always inflexible legs.
Everything had been going very well: I built up to a mileage
level in the low 30s per week, comfortably, and though I
hadn't run any races, I was happy with where I seemed to be,
pacewise. A goal of a sub-40m 10K seemed not unreasonable by
the summer.
I suppose the problems started about a month ago. I switched
my shoes from the New Balance 1220 to the NB 765, which felt
good and seemed to offer a similar amount of support in a
slightly lighter shoe. I did a few days on the treadmill,
which felt fine, but on my first day outside, on a rolling-
hill course, I bashed the hell out of my toes, ending up
with an extremely painful black toe. The pain subsided after
a rest day, so I switched my shoes back; a few normal runs
followed. But then I had to bag a speed workout in the
middle, feeling lousy.
I took several rest days after that--I was coming down with
a cold and it seemed a good idea not to risk overtraining,
if that's what it was. Sometime in this period I realized my
ankle was hurting a little, and then more than a little,
too. I took further rest but the ankle didn't improve.
It took two weeks to get in to a doctor, and he quickly
confirmed a pretty classic case of achilles tendinitis. He
gave me orthotics and anti-inflammatories and instructions
to visit a physical therapist. The PT judged me to have very
low arches, and still-inflexible legs, but thinks that I'll
recover well with work and time. I've just started this.
He's got me on assorted stretching and strengthening and ice
and ultrasound; the pain is mostly gone, but of course I
haven't been running at all.
So where does this leave me? The most important thing I'm
realizing is just how much I depend on running now; I really
miss it, and not being able to run is incredibly
frustrating. I'm also irritated that even with the care I
put in to avoiding injury, I still got it--I feel cheated in
a way, like I could have been doing much harder and more
satisfying work and then gotten injured, but here I held
back, which was maddening, yet then got injured anyway.
And there are the worries about the future: how long will it
take until I can run hard again? How careful will I have to
be? Will I have to add another sport to get training that
won't risk another achilles problem? And more practically:
what kind of shoes should I get next time? Will I be doomed
to wear heavy things with orthotics in them, or will I ever
be able to use lighter shoes (light trainers, not racing
flats) for races? (In retrospect, I doubt this could have
been caused by the shoe switch--I didn't do enough mileage
in the 765s, and they're a pretty solid shoe themselves--
it's not like I went from heavy trainers to running high
mileage in racing flats.) (Despite living in New York, I've
been unable to get any good shoe advice--I've been to
several of the specialty running stores around, and no one
has ever looked at the wear of my previous shoes, or watched
how I run in a few different new pairs.)
So there we are. These are all rhetorical questions, by the
way--I'm just expressing them, I'm not seeking or expecting
any answers, if they could even be given. Sorry for the self-
indulgence, but I just needed to do something running-
related, even merely talking about it, so thanks for
reading this far.
Jesse Sheidlower