Hi
I'm wondering if anyone out there may be able to offer some
ideas as to what could be wrong with me, or to see if anyone
has had a similar experience.
Nearly three years ago I was using a PC at work and felt a
strange sensation in the back-right of my head. My vision
was temporarily interrupted and I felt as though I was going
to faint, sounds were also muffled. I sat with my head down
for a couple of minutes while I recovered and when I got up
I felt very shakey and unstable and had to leave. I was then
off work for a week with the below symptoms, it took me a
week or so to adjust.
Since then I have felt as though I have been living in a
daze, a kind of dream-world. It's a very strange sensation
that I struggle to explain to people, however it is
severely limiting my life. Whenever walking around, ouside
or indoors, I feel like I'm in a strange state, it feels
as though I am not really here and I find it difficult to
look where I am going as though movement is confusing my
brain. When at work and sat at my desk I feel more and
more irritable during the day and I find that towards the
end of the day I am struggling to pronounce words
correctly and have problems thinking straight, it's as if
I am extremely tired.
Another big problem is that I also find driving
uncomfortable and cannot drive for more than 10-15 mins
before my vision is irritated and I feel the strange 'not
really here' feelings. This leads me to feel panicky and I
have to pull over for a break. The faster I drive the worse
I feel. I have no fear of speed nor am I afraid of driving.
I used to ride a push-bike but now feel unsafe as I struggle
to look at the road ahead without feeling panicky and
irritated, again I get this 'not really here' feeling.
I have been to my doctor at least 10 times. He is convinced
that this being caused by anxiety / depression, however I
feel neither anxious nor depressed. He did prescribe Seroxat
for 12 months, but this had no effect. I have had blood
tests, a thyroid test, blood pressure tests and eye tests
but nothing has been revealed. I have not, however, had a
brain scan. I suggested this to my doctor but he dismissed
the idea. I have seen three neurologists, all were convinced
that the problem was blood-pressure / heart rate related but
tests have shown no problems.
Does anyone have any idea as to what this might be? My
thoughts run to, maybe, some sort of mini stroke having
occured, but this is purely a guess as no-one has yet come
up with a satisfatory explanation.
Thanks for any ideas or shared experiences.
Jon