"np426z" <[email hidden]> wrote in message news:<[email hidden]>...
Quoted message said:I can't believe they really imagine that I, or anyone else, will view them
differenly were they to shave under some magic barrier by a few seconds or
even a few minutes. If they do, then they are sadly mistaken. Ovett I
admire for his courage and personality, not for his pr's or world records.
Walker I admire for his dedication to his craft, his longevity, his
resilience. And so on...
I definitely view any citizen racer who _attempts_ to
break some magic barrier differently; I respect the
dedication and the effort, I feel a certain camaraderie
and I will root for his success (and envy it) and share
his disappointment. In fact, I view *myself* differently
since accepting the (self-presented) challenge.
I don´t so much admire or even respect those who´ve
achieved the goals (that I`ve had or I still have) as
acknowledge, however grudgingly, that achievement. And
I´m grateful for the motivation it gives me.
(BTW possibly you wouldn´t have paid attention to or
followed the careers or Ovett or Walker if they hadn´t
been succesful. There are probably quite a few perennial
also-rans who´ve demonstrated the same fine qualities?)
Quoted message said:"Oh, but it's not for others. I'm setting targets for myself", some wail.
Well, I cannot honestly promise that I could shut up
about my eventual sub-3:-) And even if it´s only the
wordless recognition of those who´ll finish the marathon
with me that day, I´ll probably seek that eye contact and
that nod or that handshake from *others*.
Quoted message said:Hey, by all means have ambitions. But don't tie ambition to a set time or
distance, that's too easy. Set it against effort, measure it against hope,
judge it against dreams. And always, always, remember to laugh at yourself
along the way.
I certainly think that I´ve been been able to do so (and
I hope that I´ve been able to make others, too, laugh at
me - but I know I´m often too long-winded, stuffy and
solemn to be as succesful as I´d like to).
One reason why we have always had annual feasts is to give
a certain form and a rhythm to what would otherwise be
nothing but a long run of days, and for very much the same
reason we often thrive when we think up, plan and execute
projects of various kinds.
My running would be a formless mass of activity without
my sub-3 project. No doubt I would occasionally enjoy
moments of satisfaction provided by sheer physical exertion,
moments of a feeling of flow when the running´s really
good, or moments of visual or tactile pleasure when I´m
surprised by the richness of nature and the sensations
it can provide without committing myself to a project -
but I haven´t had to sacrifice any of those moments yet.
And a project doesn´t have to be a prison or a desk
job; I "should" have been following a strict program,
but all I´ve done since Midsummer is have fun in
small orienteering races without feeling any less
dedicated, determined or motivated - because I know
I have a project to return to!
Quoted message said:Anders, will you have failed if you never achieve your sub-3? Will you
have succeeded when you dip under the mark? Are the criteria by which your
measure your running life so easily defined? And, if not, then why stress
over numbers plucked from thin air?
Because, like the peaks of Himalaya, "they are there":-)
What else could I use to build a project around? I don´t
think I want to follow Tim or Steve...
If I succeed one day, I will paint the missing eye of my
Daruma doll and pat myself on the back so much that my
hand will be sore. Then I shall buy a new Daruma doll.
If I never succeed, I will know that I´ve at least tried,
that I´ve had a couple of interesting years in my running
life thanks to trying. One day I´ll no doubt ask the
nurse to pour me a stiff drink from the special bottle
I´ve reserved and mourn over the lost opportunities:-)
I define my running life as "very good" when I´m not
injured and I have the time to run. It´s "abysmal" when
I´m ill or injured and cannot run as much - which may
vary - as I´d like to.
Anders