Over the last few weeks, the words to this poem have helped
me immensely get through some awkward and difficult
moments. When I find myself feeling especially vulnerable
to the negative internal voices that say I can't lose (any
more) weight, I use this poem to remind myself to stay on
program anyway.
The poem is in the public domain. The Roches wrote music for
it and recorded it on their album "Zero Church."
ANYWAY
People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, People may accuse you of selfish, ulterior
motives; Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and
some true enemies; Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; Be honest
and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy
overnight; Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; Be
happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; Do
good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be
enough; Give the world the best you've got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God;
It was never between you and them anyway. My current weight:
147 lbs Weight change since my last recorded weight: -5 lbs
Total weight change to date: -85 lbs
Plummeted to reach two mini-goals, first to weigh less than
150, and second to have lost 85 lbs overall. I now drop two
daily points to 20, and I'm 2 lbs from my WW goal. One of
these days, I'll have to set my personal goal.
I can explain this week's drop. First, I painted my kitchen
and bathroom last weekend, and stripped the layers of
acrylic paint off one side of the basement door. I munched
almost the entire day on whatever was at hand (mostly fat-
free pretzels that I use for lunches). By the end of day
one, I was ravenous and tired; the thought of cooking, or
even using the microwave in the basement, required more
effort than I could muster. I ordered a medium Fit N
Delicious veggie pizza from Pizza Hut, along with a salad,
and ended up eating the entire thing in one sitting. Dinner
alone was 24 points. Day two went similarly, except that
instead of eating pretzels, I got through the day on ice
cream. I don't remember what I ate for dinner. Maybe
nothing. Between the two days, I ate all daily points PLUS
my flex points and then some. By Monday morning, the scale
was up 3 lbs over Saturday's WI. I figure that was mostly
water retention from the sodium-heavy eating on Saturday
plus the sore muscles from painting.
Monday I got right back on program, eating only my daily
points spread over 3 regular meals. Tuesday I ate a little
under my daily points, spread over 3 regular meals. By
Wednesday, I was eating about half my daily points, not
eating dinner at all.
Here's the deal: Construction is rapidly coming to a close.
By the end of Monday, I'll have a fully functioning
bathroom and kitchen. By the end of Tuesday, 98% of the
work will be done. This week was a frenzy of activity and
decision-making and fretting as everything started coming
together. Every evening I had to inspect the day's work and
take in all the things that delighted me and make notes
about questions and things left undone or done incorrectly.
Then I'd have to make a trip to the hardware store for some
item or two I'd forgotten I needed. I was too busy to eat.
And I had no appetite. The butterflies in my stomach left
no room for food.
Other than last week's painting, no exercise.
I fully expect to gain back some of this week's whoosh once
life returns to some semblance of normal. I figure a
kitchen/bath remodel is a once-in-a-lifetime experience and
so has been my way of eating this week. Not a chance that
I'll make a lifetime habit of not eating. But it's nice to
be in the 140s, if only for another day or two. I haven't
seen this decade on the scale since I was in high school
more than 30 years ago.
This weekend I'm stripping paint again, this time the
bathroom door frame. Monday I'm taking the day off from work
to hover over the plumbers through the installation of my
appliances and fixtures. Everything is so beautiful, I'm
having a hard time believing it's my house being
transformed. That's not so different from my disbelief about
having lost 85 lbs and wearing size 8 petite pants. These
days the gratitude I'm feeling for the changes in my life
reduces me to tears.
It's the best day of my life!
--
Linda P
week 61: 232/147/WW goal 145/personal goal 130?
WNM week 4: 155.6/147/145
next mini-goals: 145 (WW goal)
started WW 22-Feb-2003 | 10% target: 1-May-2003
5'4" | 50 | F
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