First off, I know this is likely the wrong place for a question on such a primary topic, but it seemed to make more sense here than anywhere else.
I rode a lot as a kid, but I haven't seriously ridden a bicycle for very long in something like twelve years. In the meantime, I've put on a lot of weight and I seem to have forgotten how to ride a bicycle like I once did. I hope somebody can help me with that.
The first thing is turning. I feel almost paralyzed to turn. I remember vividly leaning the bike over to massive angles when I was younger, but now I can't lean at all. There was a time when I managed to knock the skin off my knee because I would lean off the bike so far. Now though, it just feels wrong.
My worry is one of simple strength. I weighed less than a hundred pounds then, now I tip the scales at two-hundred and thirty pounds. I'm not sure if I lean the bike over if I'll be strong enough to 'stand it back up'. I don't actually remember if I ever did need to force the bike back to vertical when I rode before, it's been so long, memory fades. I certainly don't want to end up crashing out because I managed to lean over without being able to come back up. I could do one handed push ups and pull ups then, now I'd be hard pressed to do a two handed push up.
I've seen photos of other cyclists, and I see a lot of people riding with the bike leaned to thirty, forty degrees. I've been riding again for fewer than four days, will the 'old magic' return, leaning the bike, turning quicker, more stable, or am I doomed to unsteadily turning the front wheel and hoping I don't end up killing myself? In one way it feels like my confidence grows exponentially each time I ride, and at other times I feel like I'm minutes away from a blinkylight ride to the hospital.
In summary;
I'm unsure about leaning the bike. How much should I worry about leaning and not having the bike come back up?
Will more saddle time and mileage cure my phobias?
Will I become more stable.
I'm still unsure if a guy who's 5'7" and 230 pounds can even ride a bicycle like I did as a kid, but if I don't learn how, I'll likely be dead. Ideal center of gravity or not; I've got the shed the weight. I was born with multiple foot injuries and problems that make aerobic walking, running simply too painful to do; cycling is my last hope.